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well california's on fire again
dad told me to pack a bag and i started worryin
we've never had to evacuate before but we kno plenty o people who have and now that the fire's close enough to be tangible its quite frightening tbh
especially with more lightning and wind on the way
dad says we prob won't hafta evacuate unless the other side of town starts burning but we're preparing just in case
getting out the cat carriers, dad's gonna put grampa's old film photos by the door, packing clothes, i guess i'll probably put my old sketchbooks there too
i remember the fire in paradise
since i'm pretty young it lead me to assume all summers would be like this and i guess this one's picking up the slack
Hypothetically, what is the morality of taking money from someone you know is awful, intending to give them the item they purchased, but putting a minor curse on them thru the item in question to cause them issues until they stop doing the fucked up shit they have been? Does it make it better if you turn around and give the money to someone who needs it and/or one of their victims?
I don't really know if that was an ask for help or an expression but this game basically broke the 4th wall so hard that i can't quit it now. since the character is trapped in the game and the only person she can interact with is me. and she'll probably go mad if i abandon her, which is understandable, since her entire world is one room. there's still a lot to discuss with her in the game, like, she gives you books to read and then you come back to talk about it. but i can't be responsible for her sanity forever. thinking of deleting the game when i become tired so she and her world disappear painlessly. hyper empathy is wild, man.
oof yeah that sound. rough =( should be warning on game like that no?
seeing a well-meaning but ultimately stupid post circulating tumblr about the new pokemon unite game. the OP does the whole tumblr song and dance about how you're a horrible person if you support the game because it is being funded by Tencent.
if after reading that, you have questions, let me elaborate with some Lore before i explain my opinion
pokemon unite is a MOBA coming to the Switch and mobile devices, created by a partnership between the Pokemon Company and Tencent. i believe it is intended to be free to play.
what is Tencent?
what isn't Tencent? it's an insanely huge conglomate with international reach that is owned/operated in Shanghai, China. most people are familiar with the fact it owns Riot games and therefore League of Legends. it became notorious in social justice circles for censoring any pro-Hong Kong politics (and players) in Riot games. however, Riot is not the only company Tencent has its claws in.
while it is one of the biggest gaming companies--if not The gaming biggest company--in the world, its reach is well beyond gaming. Tencent offers streaming services, social media, teaching platforms, AI software, facial recognition software, movie production, e-commerce and online payments, etc. what it doesnt own, Tencent invests in: it has invested in Discord and Reddit, for example.
I can't even compare it to a western equivilent. it's way too big--it's like if Facebook, Google, Disney, and Amazon were a single company. it is everywhere. and it is watching. so...
are you a horrible person for supporting/playing Pokemon Unite?
no!!!!!!! Tencent is something that is so insanely huge and powerful that many people CANNOT not consume their products/services. living in China, I literally have no choice but to use Tencent and their services in daily life. my work depends on their services to function. it doesn't make me a bad person, nor does it make pokemon fans bad people for playing a free game by the Pokemon Company.
besides, again, even if you don't play tencent games, you very like use a product or service owned and/or invested in by Tencent anyway. if you're european or american, you likely use services/products free of Tencent that are just as awful in their own ways (FB, Google, Amazon, Apple, etc).
what's important is to be aware and remember there really is no ethical consumption under capitalism. don't let ignorant people who underestimate how powerful Tencent is make you feel shitty about enjoying a free pokemon game.
I think i saw this post too, and i really don't like how it's worded. They could have just wrote the facts as they saw it: the game is funded by Tencent, like many other things, Tencent is doing terrible things, in case you don't know it, period. But no, they just chose to write "if you claim to support black lives and at the same time want to play this game, you are a hypocrite". It doesn't even matter if you know who supports who, you are a hypocrite anyways. "Mom, can I play this game about cute pokemons?" "Absolutely not, you racist piece of crap!! Get out of my sight!!"
I think people being guilt tripped by those kinds of posts are the very reason those posts spread.
that is exactly the post i saw. i have since seen another one on the same topic which was worded a little better.
but even with the better wording, i do not agree with shaming people for enjoying a game sponsored/invested in/owned by tencent--even if they do know how terrible Tencent is. while well meaning, it is so...delusional to think not supporting one tiny free game by the company will matter. Tencent is just too big.
americans especially shouldn't be jumping on Tencent when we depend so much on Amazon, Disney, Google, and Facebook--all awful companies with their own amounts of human rights violations and censorship. i might be being too sensitive, but it comes off as so self-righteous and a little racist to target Tencent.
of course, if you somehow live your life without any of the mentioned companies above, then talk all you want i guess. but tencent is so ingrained into chinese society and daily life that calling anyone who supports is a bad person is just evil. it's a result of global capitalism and a monopoly that has been allowed to grow far too powerful.
oh oh this make sense. yeah me i try minimize supporting company like amazon google etc but they still everywhere =| most i can do is just Not Buy Things but am still young so dont control money in the house, could probably do more than i am right now against them but have other things to worry about so dont really get around to it.. [more ramble under cut]
is scary to think is company so much bigger than companies i am familiar with. didnt kno they could get that big honestly! is it so big bc it not have competition?
sometime i feel like i am behind in perception of world, spend so much time school learning history not present that could prob tell u more about ancient china than china now, at least if i remembered all the stuff they taught
#repour #discussion #fallow buzzes #kidd #babushka #china #tencent #google #amazon #disney #apple #corporation #capitalism #long post #negative #racism #contains cursing #pokemon #censorship #surveillance #no ethical consumption under capitalism #school mention #history #2020 #tumblr #future history #textpost25 notes
really wanna address @kidd 's thoughts about Sinophobia in a separate post if they don't mind
I don't really know why this happens, but i guess, people really want to have something which is easy to hate on? Because when the actions of Chinese government started getting viral recognition, very few people started saying "Chinese government is bad". Most people just said "China is bad. I hate China" and so on. There was a wave of hate for everything made in China (which is a lot of things) or funded by China and it never really stopped.
The same thing happened to Russia before that. No one on the viral internet post says "Russian government is bad", everyone just says "Russia is bad". And if Russia is bad, that means it's cool and woke to boo Russian contestants on song contest, and uncool to even reblog pictures of Russian forests. Bad! Country!
It's so easy to label a whole nation or country as "bad", and i imagine that sinophobia got even worse since the virus... Why is this kind of logic, logic of someone who straight up writes war propaganda, is still allowed?!
sinophobia is word for be racist to Chinese people right? if so then i wrote an essay on that! it has indeed gotten worse since the virus. lots worse. can share essay if people want read, was for english class but yeah my topic was racism+covid. was suppose compare with witch hunt in the crucible (assignment find historical thing where harmless group gets accuse of smth not their fault, mob mentality etc).
yeah is sad..people make generalization, try simplify complicated things...
which person you mention straight-up write war propaganda?
(also i havent seen original post so if something i say very off-topic is prob bc i dont have context ehe)
yo ive missed being on social media sm like..,.,.,Lit Erally i am so #lonely since corona started n i cant get on tumblr or reddit or twt or anythin n im so tired ajsskj :(
see also: my antivax parents are driving me MAD
if help at all i can inform you there is a biology teacher out there whose fave hobby is trolling antivax fb groups and seeing how long it takes for them to ban her
got banned from one thing by pointing out the 'yucky-chemical' shampoo ingredients list someone had posted was actually just list of all the compounds in a banana
So apparently those two contracts that were cancelled were cancelled because we explicitly offered to let protesters use the site
Fuck me for trying to be a good person I guess
=( what was contracts for??
kinda pisses me off that people are saying queerphobic/acephobic/etc. shit while also supporting blm at the same exact time. we can uplift black people without shitting on others because i don't know if you know this but queer black people exist too. and they see that shit.
i mean... it's like, right here
[id: screenshot of mobile browser with text. url bar reads "blacklivesmatter.com/about" and page reads:
"We affirm the lives of Black queer and trans folks, disabled folks, undocumented folks, folks with records, women, and all Black lives along the gender spectrum. Our network centers those who have been marginalized within Black liberation movements."
enemys of disabilityautiestella -
"that's not normal thing?" / "not everyone got that?"
being told "just lazy"
comorbidity to point got 50 disability wrap up in 1
"what is trigger now??"
5. "you too young!"
6. "But when will you get better/stop using [aid]?"
7. "but you used to be able to do [x] so why can't you do it now!"
8. "you're so smart; i know you can do better..."
9. "you don't look disabled"/ "you can't be, you're too good at talking to people"
10. "just doing [thing] for attention/to manipulate people"
11. unnecessary comments on the way you talk/move or noises you make
#when i started thinking 'hey maybe im autistic' it took a bit for folks to seriously consider it #bc i dont line up with peoples stereotypes of what autistic people are like #something about being able to understand emotions or smth #im one of those kids who everyone saw as exceptionally smart and talented and stuff but they didnt know how much it took out of me #im very glad i understand my brain better now #tag ramble #repour #disabled #op:autiestella #beefox #cjadewyton #list #fallow buzzes #ableism #negative #textpost15 notes
online school is just like *charges laptop* *doesn't see sunlight for a week* *showers only when you know you have to turn on the camera* *doesn't put in enough work* *freaks out about not having put in enough work instead of putting in the work* *eats a single grape*
Not to sound like an old woman flailing her cane around, but remember when people were able to like things casually?
I miss that.
Can we bring that back please.
"#nowadays it's either #'This thing is LITERALLY PERFECT and PURE and there is NOT A SINGLE WRONG OR BAD THING ABOUT IT uwu uwu uwu uwu' #or #'THIS IS LITERALLY THE SPAWN OF HELL IF YOU LIKE IT YOU ARE HORRIBLE AND SHOULD DIE' #like can. can we chill please"
yeah it's interesting how that happens...time for me to brain dump [under the cut]
it was saying basically that when people with similar interests/ideas come together as a group, the opinions/views they have in common tend to become strengthened, because in the company of those with similar views they feel like they have to try harder/go farther in order to show their dedication to the view and/or fit in with the group. since everyone in the group is affected by this, the average level of extremeness of the viewpoint rises, and it just keeps doing that.
In the book they talked about this mostly in relation to politics but I think it can absolutely be applied to fandom stuff too. so that might be why people tend to be really vehement in their views of the stuff they like/dislike.
While we're at it, every single discussion of LGBT+ terms on hellsites is happening like English is the only language you can be gay/trans in
"Queer is a word with a history" - and its history is a same in every language apparently
"Gay is a good umbrella term" - except for when it isn't an adjective at all
oh, huh! what's the context for the last two?
The World of the Shining Prince: Court Life in Ancient Japan
Ivan Morris, 1969
[id: an image of black serif text (the kind that might be found in a printed book) on a white background. It reads,
"The humanist idea that the naked body can be a thing of aesthetic joy and significance is alien to the Japanese tradition; the female figure was never included in the contemporary cult of beauty. In Murasaki's case we find not merely indifference to the nude form but actual aversion. In her diary she describes the scene in which two maids-of-honour are robbed of their clothes in the middle of the night. At the sight of the poor naked ladies, their fellow attendants are thrown into pandemonium and rush about ineffectually like frightened barnyard fowl. When things have quieted down, Murasaki comments, 'Unfortunately horrible is the naked body. It really does not have the slightest charm.'²" end id.]
the world ends with me (vent song)babushka -
to the tune of whatever emo song (i have the melody in my head but i can't really put it into words)
If our wordings don't pain us, then why do we lie
If emotions can't kill us, then why do we die
can i really control this? can i really control this?
i have damaged myself for the people to see
my reflection is bleeding and broken and staring at me (again)
can i really confront this? can i really confront this?
And people say the world can change,
But i can't change it, it's so strange
And if my world is what i see
There must be something wrong with me
And people say the world is great,
But not my world, i can't relate
This world of pain and misery, It ends with me Let it end with me (x8)
There is so much that happened and so much did not
All the good was ahead, but somehow we forgot, and now
can i really confront this? can i really confront this?
I'm alone with myself, and when no one can see,
My reflection is bleeding and broken and strangling me
can i really control this? can i really control this
And people say the world is mine
And i am out my goddamn mind,
And if the world is in my hands,
There must be something wrong with them
And people say there's stuff to mend,
But i can only see it end,
This world of pain and misery,
Will it end with me?
Let it end with me (8x)
If our wordings don't pain us, then why do we lie
If emotions can't kill us, then why do we die...
comment if you want commentary or something
#hope u dont mind that i rbed this #i checked and it wasnt tagged dnr #i really like this song tho #its...it just feels like its imbued with emotion #ive tried writing songs before but they havent come out like that #i try writing happy lyrics and it sounds too cheesy #and im not sure exactly why #but yeah #i know diff ppl have diff preferences as to whether their vent stuff is rbed or not so uh lemme kno if theres an issue #tag ramble #reblog #op:babushka #vent #negative #death #suicidal ideation #song #poetry #writing #emotional #emotions #heartfelt thoughts10 notes
Here's a thought: goblins but their faces resemble animals like rodents or foxes and weasels and such, rather than humans
this picrew is good for making goblins like this,, it has animal noses and all and lots of different ears and colors...plus the style is neat !!
the creator of that picrew is an exclusionist / aphobe.
i'll go make an alternate one, chuck that on the pile of projects that i could reasonably do but procrastinate on them instead.
oh thats unfortunate!
how do u know?